SUCKS being a Teacher!

I really have more and more respect for teachers now as I lead into their footsteps. I never thought I'll be one but my desire to venture abroad significantly contributes my decision to be an ESL teacher.

It's really stressful sometimes, rewarding at another. I briefly taught at a private college for barely 2 weeks. Due to their very conservative style, I quitted on my first day but it dragged on to nearly 2 weeks. On top of that, I just couldn't handle dealing with ill-disciplined spoilt rich brats. You could barely teach them, they'll be screaming, shouting, throwing punches - practically everything except paying attention. I didn't like the person I became when I was there. I turned NASTY. I shouted at my students to demand their attention. There was no other way but that was truly not my style. I had to gulp down tons of bottles of water down my throat cos of the constant shouting. It was a nightmare. It was HELL. This was few months ago.

It doesn't stop there. I just found out they created some facebook page discussion about who their best foreign teacher is. Oh. My. God. Some fuckhead wrote the only thing he learnt from me was 'SHUT UP'. He also wrote I was being fired from the school which was a mother fucking LIE. I quitted and was asked to stay. I was even offered a higher pay should I decide to stay.

I wish I could throttle that dickhead I swear. I know I shouldn't feel so bothered by what a young teen wrote but somehow I felt angry. I felt a sense of betrayal as when I was teaching there, countless students came over to tell me I was a great teacher and I received countless notes of 'I LOVE YOU' and some little funny gifts.

That discussion was in Turkish and I was actually glad. I could make my partner translate all the comments made but I stopped him at a few. I don't think I can hear any more shit thrown my way. Apparently the kids have a new favourite teacher now after the one who replaced me left. One time ya hot stuff, the next ya garbage.

Maybe I'm being extra sensitive but as a female, I just can't help feeling affected by it. Maybe cos I personally feel I've always tried my best. I spent hours on my lesson preparations, to the point of having 3 hours of sleep. What hurts more I feel is the lack of gratitute and appreciation by students. I guess that's life. That's what teachers go through and I should just hold my head up high and embrace another challenge.

I wish I was a better student back then too. I wish I've thanked my ex-teachers for their hard work in trying to educate us. Come to think of it, I didn't. I was simply... one of the brats.

Aaaah... I think this is what they called... retribution.


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